Blå bliver blå ... Blue turns into blue

Jeg modtager ofte kommenter om "hvor positiv min blog er om mit liv i Danmark" og modtager spørger ligesom "er du lige lykkelig altid, eller hvad?" Lad mig forklare....

I often receive comments about "how positive my blog about my life in Denmark is" and receive questions like "are you just happy all the time , or what?" Let me explain....

Selvfølgelig har jeg gode dage og dårlige dage, ligesom alle. Da jeg begyndte min blog om mit liv i Danmark, lavede jeg det for 3 grunde--1. at hjælpe mine familie og venner bliver forbundet til mig; 2. at forbedre mit dansk; og 3. at minde mig selv at opdage altid nye ting i liv (i stedet for alle ting at jeg kan ikke lide om Danmark eller alle ting at jeg savner af Amerika.) Så NEJ, jeg er ikke naturaligt lykkelig alle tid, men jeg tror at hvis jeg altid klage over "Danmark vs. Amerika", vil jeg aldrig finde alle vidunderlig ting at mit nyt hjem har for mig.

Of course I have good days and bad days just like everyone else. When I began my blog about my life in Denmark, I made it for 3 reasons--1. to help my family and friends to stay connected to me; 2. to improve my Danish; and 3. to remind myself to always discover new things in life (instead of all the things that I do not like about Denmark or all the things that I miss about America). So NO, I am not just naturally happy all the time, but I believe that if I always complain about the "Denmark vs. America" debate, I will never find all the wonderful things that my new home has for me.

Dette var faktisk en lang introduktion for denne blogs som hedder "blå bliver blå", ikke?!

That was certainly a long introduction for this blog called "blue turns into blue", don´t you think?!

Jeg har brug for forklare noget for alle som er ny til "Mads and Kelli" så du kender historien. Mads og jeg blev gift i November 2007 og Jess og jeg modtog vores godkendelse fra den danske regering at flytte til Danmark lige efter og Jess planlagt at blive færdig med højskole et år tidligt og flytter til Danmark sammen mig i sommer 2008.... Det var en svær beslutning for hende at forlade Texas og alle venner og flytter til et nyt land med "et mærkeligt sprog, mørke og våde dage og 6 måneder af vinter men for mange måneder men det var hendes plan.

I need to explain something for anyone who is new to the Mads and Kelli blog so you know the story. Mads and I were married in November 2007 and Jess and I received our approval from the Danish government just after that to move to Denmark. Jess had planned to graduate a year early and move with me in the summer of 2008.... It was a difficult decision for her to leave Texas and her friends to move to a country with "a strange language, dark and wet days and 6 months of winter, but that was her plan.

Tidlig i 2008, skiftede hun hendes mening og bestemmede at blive i Amerika og bor med hendes far for sit sidste år af skole selv om hun vidste at jeg skulle flytte til Danmark. "Lang historie lavede kort"--- vi har overlevet de sidste 9 måneder og har holdt vores forhold som tæt som nogensinde....men bor fra hinanden "sucks" (Det er ingen dansk ord for det!). Så vi planlægge tur og besøg så ofte som mulig og snakke hver dage. Men... blå bliver blå???

Early in 2008, she changed her mind and decided to stay in America and live with her dad for her last year of high school although she knew that I would still be moving to Denmark. "Long story, short"---we have survived the last 9 months and kept our relationship as close as ever.... but living apart sucks. So we plan trips and visits as often as possible and talk every single day. But .....blue turns into blue???

Ja... fordi siden Jess rejste i går morgen, har jeg været blå, bange for at græde fordi jeg vidste at hvis jeg begyndte, kan jeg måske ikke stoppe. Det var så svært at se Jess tager afsted denne gang fordi jeg ved at i mindre 5 måneder, begynder hun college og hendes tur til Danmark vil være ikke ofte. Plus jeg indser at hun begynder hendes egen liv og kommer til Danmark at besøg mor vil ikke være på toppen af listen. Og det er OK... og det er normalt fordi det sker når dine børn går til college....

Yeah, it does because since she left Monday morning, I have been blue, afraid to cry because I knew that once I started, I may not be able to stop. It was so much harder this time to let her go because I know that in less than 5 months she is starting college and the trips will be less frequent because of that. Plus I realize that she is starting her own life very soon and running over to Denmark to hang out with mom will not always be at the top of the list. And that is ok and it is normal because that is what happens when your kids go to college.....

...selv om det er OK og normalt, gøre det ondt stadig. Det er det slags af "smerte" i bunden af maven og overalt dit hjerte. Det er det slags af "BLÅ" at fortælle dig at blive ved med i sengen og ikke stå op og det er hvor jeg følte i går. I sengen, BLÅ og tænker på hvor meget jeg savner Jess..... Har du dage ligesom dette???

...but even though it is ok and it is normal, it still hurts. The kind of deep hurt in the bottom of your stomach and each chamber of your heart. The kind of BLUE that makes you want to stay in bed and refuse to face the day and that is where I was yesterday. In bed, BLUE and wondering how I was going to do this again... Do you ever have those kind of days?

Men jeg er lykkelig at sige at min MØRK BLÅ har blevet en LYS BLÅ.... tak til den danske himmel. Jeg tog ikke brusebåd og havde sminke på i gårs morgen, men i stedet for, jeg grædede meget, havde på et par stor solbriller og en hat, sætte Albert i bilen og kørte til min yndlingsskov--Jynevad Skov. I stedet for af jeg fortæller jer om hvor solen og himmel og skyer og fresk loft gjorde til mig, vil jeg lade mine billeder fortæller historien. (Men et råd-- din mørk blå kan ikke blive lys blå hvis du aldrig stå op fra sengen!)

But I am happy to report that my DARK BLUE has become a LIGHT BLUE...thanks to the Danish sky, of all things. I did not shower or put on make up yesterday morning, but instead cried all I needed to cry, put on a pair of big sunglasses and a hat, loaded Albert up in the car and drove ten minutes until I came to my favorite forest in Denmark--Jynevad Forest. Instead of telling you what the sun and the sky and the clouds and the fresh air did for me, I think I will let the pictures tell that story. (but one piece of advice....your dark blue cannot ever turn into light blue if you never get out of the bed....)